The selfish giver

One would think that being a giver is quite the opposite of being selfish, but I've come to find that I am both. While I've always been a HUGE giver, I'm equally as selfish. I mean if I have the means to do something nice for some one I care about, I'm gonna do it. No questions asked, and not because I expect something in return, but because I just love the gift of giving. I find pleasure in giving all around the board. But just as much, I'm selfish, not to the point where I have a disregard for the well-being of others, just to the point where I'd rather help you get your own than share mine. For instance. I have a friend who, everytime we order food, he's like, "You get this and I'll get that, then we can share." NO! I don't WANT that. If I wanted THAT, I would have gotten THAT. I want THIS, and if you want it too then THIS is what you should get, not THAT. How about I just buy two and you can have your own?